Desert Time – Psalm 71

20 You, who have shown me great and severe troubles,
Shall revive me again,
And bring me up again from the depths of the earth.

Recently, working has been a little out of control. Many times, i felt like i lacked joy in the things i do in school – the catching, reprimanding, frowning.. Some days i just can’t wait for the day to end and try again the next day, going to bed hoping that the next day will be a better one. But somehow, last 2 weeks had been especially trying.

9 Do not cast me off in the time of old age;
Do not forsake me when my strength fails.

I must confess that ever since i started work this year, the time spent with God really really suffer quite a bit. Can’t wake up earlier than 5 plus to spend time because of physical tiredness, can’t find appropriate time in school (like in between lessons) to read the devotional book. Even if i do have time, i am not spending time but perhaps just “showing face” and buying my own conscience that, “Ok, i have read today’s”. Ya, it has been that bad i guess.

16 I will go in the strength of the Lord GOD;

But of course, that’s not how i will continue to leave things to be. I am still stuck in this situation, one which i thought i never will be. Such a dry period of time. Kept feeling like i am in a desert and i am so thirsty and as each day passes by, i felt like my energy is diminishing. So thirsty, so tiring!

20 You, who have shown me great and severe troubles,
Shall revive me again,
And bring me up again from the depths of the earth.

Strangely, i really cannot explain how convinced i am internally that this is just a phase in time, just something that i have to go through. And because of that, i know that i will have a way out definitely! And i know that God, You are definitely the one that is going to help me out! That is the only thing i kept coming back to, the only thing that kept me going on. And this morning, as i read this devotional passage from odb, i just felt reassured again – that, God will revive me. He will bring forth living waters in the desert. And i am very sure that this perfect peace will not come just only when we are in heaven, but even when we are on earth experiencing heavenly powers.

I want to start recording this down – really recording the struggle that i actually went through and hopefully one day it will be of an encouragement to people around me. Not that after i have posted this entry, i am well and up! Life will probably be the same in terms of routine and work, but i shall be mindful of how things can change even as i see His promises and assurances, and as i choose to partner Him more and more from this moment onwards.

A person was placed in a desert and she was naturally, frantically looking around for water while trying to get herself out of the place. At the start, she was able to survive with whatever water she has on herself, and was able to rely on physical strength in walking and searching. But overtime, the tiredness sinks in, and weariness creeps in. She has forgotten that in the human mind, it is simply impossible to find water in the desert…with her own strength and human understanding.

Maybe in the anxiety of wanting to get out of the desert, she has forgotten that there’s Somebody who can provide streams of water flowing in the desert. Finally when she couldn’t rely on her own strength anymore, she broke down and cried. She has no other ways left, but to simply believe and pray in One who has the ability to provide her with the water she needs.ย  ๐Ÿ™‚

It’s not about many ways to this issue, and they failed. But the truth is, there is only one way. Coming to God need not be the last resort, that should have been the first and only way to rely on.

It’s also not about where we are that matters. Whether or not we are in a place with water or not. Even in a place with river, the water can dry up. But really, what matters is whether we have the Provider to the source of water with us or not.

Shall share about Isaiah 35 the next entry – streams in the desert. ๐Ÿ™‚


One response to “Desert Time – Psalm 71

  1. beautifullystated

    Thank you for sharing your words with my heart! In the name of Jesus Christ I pray that all that God has for you in this “thirsty” place allows you to know that He is The Great I Am, and all that you can possilby need in this life or the next!

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